“The sweet converse of an innocent mind… is my soul’s pleasure”- John Keats, Sonnet to Solitude
I do not know how it happened but somehow, I began to see people rationalizing doing things for others only if they deserved or would appreciate them. Individuals promptly took to keeping their “circle” small and not trusting so easily.
In my lifetime, I have been described as many things. One of the most recurrent themes has been kindheartedness. I enjoy talking with people who are more advanced in years and time after time, they are baffled when I brush someone being mean spirited to me as an isolated incident.
Some of these people I have encountered are confounded when I state my belief that although other occupants of the world are broken just like me, they usually have the best intentions. Their amazement is quickly followed by the words, “don’t ever change”.
Amongst the greatest marvels in the world is the sweet innocence of a child. This innocence is often blown out by adversity, like a candle in the wind.
I have decided that it is much more profitable to believe that people often mean well and that the ways of the world will work in my favour. The weight of suspicion is too much to bear. I would rather be surprised by the evil in the world than by its beauty.
We encounter what we expect.
The world is filled with incredible beauty, often locked away like a dam in the hearts of men. It is in this beauty that I encounter God. It is almost as though He slowly unravels His nature through tiny gestures of love.
As with everything in life, this requires copious amounts of wisdom. Some folks have had their ability to give and receive love darkened by many days, if not decades, of gloom. Some others choose not to love, thinking that it will leave them vulnerable, exposed. That is true. There cannot be love without vulnerability, without suffering.
So just like C.S. Lewis mentioned in Mere Christianity when he used the analogy of halls and several rooms, “when you have reached your own room, be kind to those who are still in the hall. If they are wrong they need your prayers all the more; and if they are your enemies, then you are under orders to pray for them”.